Consider it pure joy, my brothers and sisters, whenever you face trials of many kinds, 3 because you know that the testing of your faith produces perseverance. 4 Let perseverance finish its work so that you may be mature and complete, not lacking anything.
This week I woke up and read the words above and God just showed me something about myself. It wasn’t a new revelation but this time it seemed to really hit home…As in I fully got it. I was empowered with the knowledge that my current struggles were working to produce a better me. The me I had been praying to God to produce. The humble, kind, sweet understanding person I prayed on becoming. I understood that I was now in situations where my patience would be tested and my pride pricked and all my buttons pushed so that I could learn not to let the monster in me reign, but the woman of God who God knows I can be.
You see I had always know that I had to be careful with my prayers because God is listening. What I had not completely understood is the suddenly, or gradual aspect of it. God has His won perfect time and way of doing things. I had prayed with an image of how I thought God would work things out. That is where I went wrong. I prayed expecting God to do things my way or in a way I was prepared for or understood, but God is God. His ways are perfect and all He does is for the best. I read the words above and knew that instead of shrinking away from my struggles and becoming disheartened by them, I had to embrace them.
James encouragement to persevere so that I can become mature and lacking nothing showed me that giving up would leave me lacking. I understood that if I chose to be stubborn and handle situations my way instead of God’s way, I would not grow. I want to grow! So I prayed for God to help me come out of my feelings and be led by Him.
I continue to pray that prayer.