It seems like the thing of the day to beg for love, acceptance and acknowledgment from others. We look to media, friends and family to affirm ourselves. Rarely does this search give us the ‘love’ we seek. During my teen years when my weight was scary and my face scarier, I learned to love myself and be confident in my own skin. The alternative was to live hating myself and that just didn’t feel right. I was the way I was for a reason right?
There was a major lesson I learned during this time: cause and effect. You see we reap what we sow (most times anyway – apart from some cases of abuse and hereditary problems). I chose to eat foods in unreasonable quantities so I was overweight. I was late a lot because I refused to plan ahead. I found it hard to love people because I hadn’t learned to love myself yet. Once I learned to get to the root of problems and not skim the surface, I experienced renewal and a new love from the inside.
Now in my early twenties I am able to catch myself when I start thinking negatively and acting self destructively. God has been my major compass and by living and loving Him, learning by reading the Bible, I can say I am fulfilled.